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[quillpunk]

Time has been slipping through my hands like sand and I'm not gonna lie, it's kind of a funky feeling. Anyway, a general update (which is mostly a health update, because that's what's been up.)

I am going to do the impolite, selfish thing and mention my very cool wishlist now, because otherwise I'm not sure I'm gonna be able to hit publish on this. I have a little bit of stage-fright or something right now.

1) Yeah, so on our longed-for first trip overseas in years, my mom got sick the very first day there, and I got sick (what was supposed to be) our last day there. Stomach's bugs suck, and it completely wiped me out. Like, just, it took me like a weak just to be able to eat normally again and in the meantime I've never known hunger like that before. Holy shit. Yeah, things weren't good.

2) Then once I'd finally started getting better from that, I got a cold! And it always takes me weeks to shake colds because my immune system is a haphazard mess. So mostly I've been sneezing a lot.

3) Because of the aforementioned mess, I've not been able to take my rheumatism meds in nearly a month, because they mess with my immune system. So the general state of my physical body is also a mess. In particular I have a knee that hates my guts right now. I sure do hope the swelling goes down when i start taking meds again.

4) My neck continues to hate me. I got a device thing from hospital that is supposed to help and I think it does but, when it stops working I notice the pain. I have a very high pain tolerance; when I get used to a pain it basically stops existing for me. I can no longer get used to my neck pain because it keeps going up and down, and thusly, when the device's relief runs out, it hurts so much. I've been popping painkillers like candy the last couple of days. I would like that to stop.

5) Mentally I'm actually doing pretty okay! I'm on anti-depressants now, and wow. I kind of don't want to die. That's a wild feeling. I can't believe some people just feel like this by default. Wow. I probably should have looked into getting it way sooner, but better late than never.

Now for a few quick, not health updates:

1) I'm continuing my years long personal crusade of requesting the library purchase in queer books, and some cool stuff was accepted recently. I'm excited!

2) I've actually been writing this month! I'm trying out WritingHabit, and I really like it so far XD

3) I signed up to a few exchanges last minute. I'm honestly not sure how it's gonna go; I might just need to default on them all. But I'm giving it a shot, at least.

4) I'm thrilled folks over on booknook have kept up with the Wednesday RIP posts, because that's just been sliding out of my memory completely. And it's really nice to not have to worry about it <3

Anyway, yeah, I'm still alive.

Comments

[axolotls]

Sorry to hear about the health issues! Neck pain suuucks, probably at the top of the body pain scale for me in terms of sucking (mine makes me nauseous and finding a position that lessens the pain can be so hard), so sorry to hear it's been giving you trouble. Hopefully more things start looking up! And re: the antidepressants, yeah lol, they make such a difference, even if it's not exactly where non-depressed folks are at. Glad you've got them now!

[senmut]

+waves from headache land+ good to see you

[sweetsorcery]

I'm sorry you've been dealing with so much! And getting sick while away from home is the worst, as you don't even have the comfort of familiar surroundings. I hate that health issues always worsen in groups!

Good to know you're not letting it get you down, though, and that the anti-depressants are working for you.

I discovered the other day when using Libby that my local library gives me access to well over 9,000 LGBTQIA+ fiction titles in e-book and audiobook form. I'm frankly stunned by this, but rather pleased. :D

Going to look into WritingHabit, because I've not even been having such a thing as writing habits lately. I can use all the help I can get.

Re: the exchanges - speaking as someone who frequently gets matched up with you, and who may well have to default on some of my own excessive commitments I've taken on to force my writing back to life... please, please don't even worry about that. Deadlines are meant to be helpful, not stressful. Default whenever and wherever you need to. Taking care of yourself is the main priority!

[yourlibrarian]

What a shame about that long anticipated trip. I have a long history of getting sick on trips and it's the worst, especially if it's the kind where you're not just staying in one place. Plus, it's a lot of money spent with very little payoff.