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candyheartsex is currently open for nominations, and I'm thinking of signing up to the ex.

The only exchange I've ever done is justmarriedexchange and honestly, I didn't muck like it. I think a lot of that was on me; I had expectations (not that I know what they all were...) and when they weren't met my mood soured fast on it. I didn't like the fic I wrote, I didn't have fun writing it, it was stressful and full of pressure and I think my recipient still hasn't read my fic, which honestly? Yeah, it kind of bums me out.

However. However one attempt is a pretty small sample size, and I'm thinking a quick ex like this, with a month long writing period, is a pretty good ex to dip my toes in again, adjust my expectations, absolutely not offer or request for the fandom I wrote in the Just Married ex (because that ways lies only bad associations), and go in with a 'devil may care' attitude.

I do wanna try again, because theoretically I still think exchanges might be fun and while the dates smash a little against smallfandomfest, this still seems like it'd work.

Like, when thinking of the Just Married ex I still feel sour about it all, but if the Candy Hearts one goes even mildly better that might even those feelings out a little? And I defaulted on that pinch hit I picked up for fffx and still haven't regretted it, so 1) that was probably the right call and 2) I think I'm at least a little more comfortable defaulting now, which is probably a good skill to have for exchanges.

If I sign up and don't have fun writing for it, I'm gonna try to convince myself to default instead of soldiering on, because fanfiction is my fun time and I want it to be fun and not super serious and like. Fun vibes, you know. I'm in the middle of trying to to adjust my whole attitude to fandom like that, hence making a new AO3 account not that long ago (I wanna write a post about that at some point).

So yeah. I might give this one a go.

Also I took a break writing this post and I'm returning with a random new fandom event idea: Dead Fandoms Fest or Dead Fandoms Casket ala (is 'ala' an actual word? I think it is but the spell checker disagrees with me which has made realize if it is a word I don't actually know what it means, I just assumed it's used like this from context learning, LOL) smallfandomfest fandomgiftbasket and the like, for fandoms with like... less than 10-50 new/updated fics [posted on AO3] in the last year (10 sounds very little and 50 like a lot, so maybe 25???).

Anyway, just thought that seemed like a fun concept XD